The Challenges of Surviving Cancer

Just wantes to share the voice of a young adult cancer survivor again as a reminder of what it means to live beyond treatment.

The Short Story

I suffered a mini stroke (TIA) this week as a long-term side effect of the radiation I received for brain cancer in 1996. (Stupid cancer.) I am fine right now, recovering and will be getting a battery of tests at the NYU Stroke Center next week. I have fortunately not lost any cognition or motor coordination. I have a slight speech impediment which should be self correcting and my overall health is just fine. I'm home with my wife and children and laying low for a while.

The Long Story

On January 23rd, I awoke with a mild speech impediment and within two days noticed that symptoms had not improved AND I was having trouble touch typing. On January 26th, I asked my staff if they had noticed a change and they all confirmed my worst fears – something neurological was impacting my daily functionality.

A call to my oncologist resulted in a fast track insurance pre-certification for an MRI w on January 30. The preliminary radiology report indicated a new tumor on my brain stem, the pons, specifically. An emergency visit to my neuro-oncologist on Monday the 31st confirmed the structure however the nature of my symptoms didn't seem to add up to the suggested prognosis.

It is now the general consensus that I did NOT have a brain stem glioma and that the radiologist who originally read the MRI scans was untrained in neuro-radiology. However, with this relief, I had a different set of challenges to deal with – I didn't have cancer. I had suffered a stroke, also known as a transient ischemic attack or TIA; a known side-effect of brain radiation.

My body is on the path to healing and recovering. Next week, I am going for a battery of tests at NYU on track to enter their Comprehensive Stroke Care Center for observation, evaluation and further monitoring. Seeing as how my TIA was not caused by traditional risk factors, it remains uncertain what direction the NYU team will recommend but I plan on adding this to the list of issues I get monitored for each year.

This is my fourth brain cancer scare over the past 15 years. In 2003 I began to experience bilateral ocular migraines which blurred my vision and in 2004 I contracted ocular shingles. No tumor. The in both 2007 and 2009 I went spontaneously deaf in my left and right ears, respectively. (High dose prednisone fully restored my hearing three months later) No tumor. I've also had a lung cancer scare which turned out to he pleurisy and a testicular cancer scare which turned out to be a hernia.

I'm still here and nothing is going to stop me from loving my wife and my children and being the one of the most passionate cancer advocates in the country. I think the takeaway from this is that when the doctor says "You're cured. Go home.", that's never the end of the story *especially* for pediatric, adolescent and young adults living, through and beyond cancer. I may still be disease free but I don't feel "cured" as long as I – and millions others – continue to deal with the consequences of treatment. Surviving cancer comes at a price. With all these billions going to fund more and more mostly necessary cancer research, where is the money for cancer survivorship?

Let this be a call to action to start funding survivorship now. Go out there, raise awareness, raise your voice and raise hell. Fund survivorship now because remission is not a cure. Support the I'm Too Young For This! Cancer Foundation and our partner organizations in serving the survivorship needs of our generation.

I hope I am the only one around who can wear a t-shirt that proudly proclaims, "Thank God it was only a stroke."

I am still here. You are still here.

This is why we fight.

Stupid cancer. Survivors rule.

MZ