The Mental Game

As we move closer to meeting with the doctors, it's time to start listing all of the hard questions and trying to figure out how we'll actually answer them. The one thing for sure is that there probably won't be a consensus. Who gets the biggest vote? If it's not clear-cut, what will push us one way or the other? I imagine it will be part science, part leap of faith.

We've been in somewhat of a bubble the past couple of weeks. It's been awhile since Dan's last treatment, so the "normal" three week cycle has given way to what some days seems like a life without cancer, at least in the physical sense. Dan feels great, so it's really hard to imagine that the cancer is in there somewhere... that sneaky little sucker.

Mentally, cancer has never loomed larger for me, and has never been so all-consuming. Despite a firm belief in Dan, it is hard not to have a heavy heart. I want to solve this problem so badly, yet am powerless to do so. I know many people reading this feel the same. Yet it's the willingness of so many people who have reached out to us with nothing more than words of hope, many of whom we've never met, that is creating a soft spot to land as we bounce from emotion to emotion. I am in total awe of the generosity and empathy people have shown us.